Mo Cuishle,
I hope by this time you’ve read
what I wrote in your myspace. Well… it was unfortunate that you
believe all the things I did were based upon pre-conditions that you
should comment in return. That was sadly wrong, I am not accusing you
of any wrong doing. May be my insistance gave you and impression that
way. That’s why I am writing this too to apologize to you if my
insistance on getting a comment from you. I am really sorry.
Even when I had the feeling for you from which after the chat I
got out, I only requested comments to assist my efforts to get the
inappropriate out of me. If that’s was what you were mentioning by
“Games” then understand this Mo Cuishle, I am over that a long time
back. I have moved on, I am trying my best to get another relationship
work. I think I already told you about Jennifer.
I blocked you out of xanga because you said in a post that you
were so bored and have nothing to do… then I thought… even
when she is bored to the core of her nerves she don’t visit my
LonelyPoet.Com site and write anything. I felt sad as that came from
someone whom I thought as a good poet and wonderful person. I further
thought that may be if I block you from xanga you may visit my
LonelyPoet.Com site. That’s why I blocked you. Now whenever you
read this message understand this… there are no conditions attached
to anything I do… I did all the so called “Kind things” because
I believe you deserve it. Even now I can and will do a lot of things
but I just don’t know what. Nothing I do is a pre-condtion for
anything.
Let me make it clear once more… I had a romantic feeling for
you because of an emotional issue that came out when I tried to make
your face as the face of “Tess Of The D’Urbervilles” I knew what
to do about it and I wrote out the inappropriate feeling out of my
mind. I am not trying to play any games with you at all. My requests
for comments were all sincere and only meant for comments to my poems
without any vested interest. All the new poems I write is with Jennifer
in my mind. I hope you understand me Sam. I will always be there for
you, as a friend as a brother or whatever else “You” define.
Once again my sincere apologies for the confusion I created.
Riaz Ahammed.
I commented on your lonelypoet.com site, and I’ll comment here again.
I apologize for the assumptions I made, I suppose the only reason I have behind that is that I was very frustrated and didn’t know what else to do in that situation.
I never suspected you having feelings still and I didn’t think that was what “games” were being played either. No worries.
Perhaps the best thing to do would be to send these actions into the past and just begin again.
Hello poetrybox!
No, I wouldn’t mind at all if you commented in my site. I’ll warn you and say that I don’t write poetry as much as I used to, but every-now-and-then I still post something to write. I see that you write poetry almost every day. I’ll do what I can and come and comment when I’m able to because they look quite good! If I miss a few, take my word and know that I’ll read them all anyways.
My return at starting-over.
~Sam
P.S. I wouldn’t mind if you called me Mo Cuishle. I would never mind.